Having experienced sexual abuse at a young age, parenting myself, dealing with violence and the sickness of a parent, bullying, and struggling to process my emotions, I was a submissive and people pleaser, I constantly sought validation from outside myself and often felt unaccepted and lost. Along the way I also broke my back. I was so submissive, I learnt to deal with and manage the pain and It was at least two years from breaking my back that I found out I had broken it. I continued to struggle with pain for 5 years after. I was taught to “be quiet” and keep going. As I got older these beliefs led me to self harm, develop an eating disorder, alcoholism, and have a need to be validated by men, along with a myriad of physical health problems.
I was out drinking 5 days a week if not every weekend to numb the deep physical and emotional pain, but I always knew I wanted to be a creative, make art and help people. I was constantly giving my power away, does this sound familiar to you? I was completely disconnected from my body and I had no self respect, acceptance, or idea how much of an impact this was having on my mental and physical health.
It was in 2010 when the experience of seeing a therapist who “saw” me changed how I viewed life forever. It made me realise how much joy you could experience in life by reaching out and receiving. Not being scared of being alive! I realised I needed to heal my traumas and body and uncover my true essence to feel free and create the life of my dreams.
Arts Therapy broke all systems that where taught to me, It deinstitutionalised me and allowed me to crack open and see a bit more of me from an experiential perspective. I rolled around and crawled along the floors – feeling their textures and listening. I played, connected and created. A relationship was growing with all that around me as I came more into my body. I was revisiting my child-self in that bush setting. It’s one thing to learn something and it’s another to experience it.
I started creating, I started listening to my body, I started to connect back to nature and the elements. I understood the importance of unearthing all of my repressed emotions, bringing my old stories to light and rewriting them, taking my pleasure and my desires into my own hands I reclaimed my sexual and shadow self and transformed my pain into power. I stopped drinking as an escape, I stopped having sex with people who didn’t respect me and I am stepping fully into my divine feminine energy. I met many more mentors, sisters and brothers and I realised how much being on the pill during my teens had numbed all of my emotions and I started to enjoy feeling into everything so deeply, I started to see how I had been repressing so much and how much wisdom was held within me. I committed to loving myself, putting myself first and living my truth. I also committed to creating and healing my cycle which had been a source of great pain and stifled creativity. I fell completely in love with my body, my life and everything I was doing. This led me to being magnetic to the life of my dreams. Now living in Bali whilst helping others heal and transform their lives too.
I understand I will continually be growing, healing and rewriting my story, and I love this journey to individuation I will continue to explore.
Through reconnecting to their innate gifts and abilities, unlocking the healing power of creativity, letting go of shame and guilt around who they are, doing the deeper levels of healing, and much more, I help people reconnect to who they truly are, heal from their past, reclaim their lives and become a magnet to the relationships, goals, and life they truly desire.
Maybe coaching and therapy is a perceived luxury, but from my experience it is a necessity. To go through life without doing creative work of any kind is a bigger tragedy than paying for a creative therapist or coach. I say this because I know the impact of doing my creative work has had on my life and the healing power and beauty it holds to bring success into our lives.
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Be the creator, express God from your heart, inspire others.